For most part of my life, I have struggled with being overweight. The struggle mostly was from the fact that I am a foodie. The very thought of depriving myself from my favourite dishes made me put the thought of diet for 'Tomorrow' and as we all know, 'Tomorrow NEVER Comes'.
Then I go about my usual routine and everything seems to go fine till I stumble upon pictured of cousins or friends who had been overweight but now boast of having lost so much weight and wow! they look amazing. I find this sudden rush of exercise spirit and tell myself that within 6 months, I should look like that!.... day 1 - all set - day 2 - on track.... day 3.... oh ! its raining.... day 4 - i slept late - ... never seen a day 5 ugggh!! WHY?? then I try giving reasons why I couldn't complete what i started. I try and look for ways to blame the situations around me but never once do I blame ME.
I went to my daughter's school for a 'Singing with mamma' session. It was such a beautiful experience. Loved every minute of it. One fine day, her teacher posts the pictures and there I see myself and I shrink on the inside seeing how huge I look. I never feel that huge but somewhere inside I know that the picture does not lie .. :-(...... All the other moms look so young and with perfect figure and there I am.... I felt so low and started hating myself for being me. I was losing interest in everything around me. I refused to style my hair. Refused to buy stylish clothes. I clad myself in anything dark or black and BIG. I just wanted to vanish.... My husband told me that I am beautiful no matter what - but I did not want to believe him. I just wanted to believe what I saw...
It was one such days when after finishing a relaxing shower, I was sitting down at the table sipping a cup of tea and doing nothing when my pretty little three year old comes to me and says - 'Mommy, you have curly hair just like me - you are soo pretty mommy' and there I was, looking into her innocent eyes that were wide open with admiration for her Mommy. Her words were pure, her feeling so real.... there she was - the Person who thinks I am 'Beautiful'. And for the first time in many years, I felt beautiful. I felt something new - Its that kind of feeling when you keep watering your plants every day and then notice a new leaf shoot out. I decided that if I needed to get healthier, I had to do something about it.
It wasn't just about the figure - It was about a healthier me. To be healthy for myself and for my loved ones.
Someone once said - The number of times you fall doesn't matter - so long as you remember to pick yourself back up onto your feet once again
I know may of you out there are in the same position as I am today. But Let's make our own chart - Lets make a better day for us. We can do this!
...... Update +4 years and many kilos loaded :-)
Everyone who has a thought that they need to lose weight, is already half way there. Over the years, I realized that the only person who can change us is us.
The time right now is 1 am. Dawning into India's 71st Republic Day and the year reads 2020.
I am in bed, tucked in beside me, are my lovely little children and my dear husband.
I want to promise myself today, that I am going to take it one day at a time and just be a better version of myself everyday. Praying that God does not give up on me.
I am starting a 180 day challenge starting today. Those who know me well, are well aware of my endless 'Day 1' days. Lol. I feel blessed. Anyway, getting back to our Day 1/180. My promise for today is, my first meal of the day will be hot lemon water.
I will walk for half an hour. I will go to bed by 10 pm. I will finish dinner by 8 pm. I sure hope i can keep up with it. Wait for my updates tonight. Good night for now.
Then I go about my usual routine and everything seems to go fine till I stumble upon pictured of cousins or friends who had been overweight but now boast of having lost so much weight and wow! they look amazing. I find this sudden rush of exercise spirit and tell myself that within 6 months, I should look like that!.... day 1 - all set - day 2 - on track.... day 3.... oh ! its raining.... day 4 - i slept late - ... never seen a day 5 ugggh!! WHY?? then I try giving reasons why I couldn't complete what i started. I try and look for ways to blame the situations around me but never once do I blame ME.
I went to my daughter's school for a 'Singing with mamma' session. It was such a beautiful experience. Loved every minute of it. One fine day, her teacher posts the pictures and there I see myself and I shrink on the inside seeing how huge I look. I never feel that huge but somewhere inside I know that the picture does not lie .. :-(...... All the other moms look so young and with perfect figure and there I am.... I felt so low and started hating myself for being me. I was losing interest in everything around me. I refused to style my hair. Refused to buy stylish clothes. I clad myself in anything dark or black and BIG. I just wanted to vanish.... My husband told me that I am beautiful no matter what - but I did not want to believe him. I just wanted to believe what I saw...
It was one such days when after finishing a relaxing shower, I was sitting down at the table sipping a cup of tea and doing nothing when my pretty little three year old comes to me and says - 'Mommy, you have curly hair just like me - you are soo pretty mommy' and there I was, looking into her innocent eyes that were wide open with admiration for her Mommy. Her words were pure, her feeling so real.... there she was - the Person who thinks I am 'Beautiful'. And for the first time in many years, I felt beautiful. I felt something new - Its that kind of feeling when you keep watering your plants every day and then notice a new leaf shoot out. I decided that if I needed to get healthier, I had to do something about it.
It wasn't just about the figure - It was about a healthier me. To be healthy for myself and for my loved ones.
Someone once said - The number of times you fall doesn't matter - so long as you remember to pick yourself back up onto your feet once again
I know may of you out there are in the same position as I am today. But Let's make our own chart - Lets make a better day for us. We can do this!
...... Update +4 years and many kilos loaded :-)
Everyone who has a thought that they need to lose weight, is already half way there. Over the years, I realized that the only person who can change us is us.
The time right now is 1 am. Dawning into India's 71st Republic Day and the year reads 2020.
I am in bed, tucked in beside me, are my lovely little children and my dear husband.
I want to promise myself today, that I am going to take it one day at a time and just be a better version of myself everyday. Praying that God does not give up on me.
I am starting a 180 day challenge starting today. Those who know me well, are well aware of my endless 'Day 1' days. Lol. I feel blessed. Anyway, getting back to our Day 1/180. My promise for today is, my first meal of the day will be hot lemon water.
I will walk for half an hour. I will go to bed by 10 pm. I will finish dinner by 8 pm. I sure hope i can keep up with it. Wait for my updates tonight. Good night for now.
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